Finally it decides to load on me. what the fuck man. My blog server is crap i tell you. So slow!!! Sucks la

sucks to be me.

I’ve just not been in a good mood lately. Too much stress and period decides to come 2 weeks after the last one. Just great right. Doesn’t help that I’m super broke.

I am angry yes i am. I dunno at what. At everything. my blog server. at myself. at everyone else. I am angry.

I am also sad at the same time. Mostly at myself. I have no idea why. I shall not see anyone tmr, well besides work. owh and my YSL workshop. But anyway.

I need to focus and get back in line with myself. I snap at everyone I get angry so fast. I get angry at the smallest things. I can’t even stay awake when I get on the bed. Yes I’ve slept many times when I’m supposed to just lie down and wake up just in time for work the next day. I tell you I’m changing. I’m no longer myself and its so sad because i like myself. I like who I was back then before all this life happened. Back then when I woke up early to go to school just because I must not be late. I finished all my assignments with tip top quality because I must be that student. The person who loved God and look forward to church meetings with my friends.

I hardly pray anymore, I can’t even keep an abstinence from small things for lent. Maybe that’s why God has forgotten about me.

I don’t know where I’m headed in life and GOSH I don’t even know if I can graduate because my cert has not arrived in Malaysia yet. What more what i’m going to do in life. WHAT IS MY AMBITION REALLY? what the fuck do i want in life?

Just great right? My parents are all happy wondering when i’m graduating and wanna take leave and shit and here, I don’t even know if I can make it for this year’s graduation. Doesn’t help that stupid HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE is NOT doing anything to get my cert asap before the graduation. [just heard an ad on tv about HELP] Whatever ad you watch on tv, about HELP, don’t even think about going there. Go far far away from HELP.

Its a dark cloud passing by, I realise.

I will be alright.

x x x

Great song to end my post – Here comes the sun  – Beatles (in loving memory of Natashia Richardson,RIP – The first time I noticed her was in Parent Trap and this song was played.)

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right
It’s all right

No related posts.

Browse Timeline

• « When in stress, look at pretty shoes:)
• » Beauty and Karen

Comments ( 1 Comment )

Add a Comment