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Stephanie Chuah shin Ju, I miss your tomyum chicken balls! the one you made during IWD in a rice cooker

LOL!

Seriously…most importantly, I miss you woman! Its been so long since we’ve msned. You see, stephanie one busy woman. since the day I met her, she’s always working. My hero, so rajin

I’m glad to have met the great Stephanie… Come back home soon, we need a session with all the days of the week in Kuala Selangor! LOL

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On another note, can I have  a gumball dispenser?

Okay, so the memorial yesterday was emotional, but despite that the performances were awesome. One of my favourite performance was John Mayer’s version of Human Nature. He totally took my breath away. Seriously.

If you haven’t watched it yet, owh, please view the video below and oogle on John Mayer’s guitar playing skills.

John Mayer can you come now and serenade me with a song?

I have also finally found out who was that Kimora looking girl who lead the song Heal The World. She is Judith Hill. True as I thought, she is a mix Japanese+African American. heehee. She sang well together with all the other back singers who were supposed to sing with Michael at the This Is It Tour. They missed out on their chance to sing in front of the crowd, but they did however sing in front of the world last night Good on them.

Still can’t get over the fact that MJ has passed on and we’ll never see him again. gah! Why do people die suddenly liddat? I still want more music!

Owh wells, I am so not sleepy thanks to last night’s memorial. I slept close to 5/6am and woke up at 3pm! Now I’m all awake and jolly. I have an appointment at 3pm tomorrow today. I hope all goes well.

So, in case you didn’t know, I am now unemployed and seeking for a job. HAHAHAH. Well, I am taking up a temp job as a PR exec for one month. I’ve always wanted to try out PR and now I can. I wish I had interned in more places during my college days! Sadly, now I can’t and need to just decide what I should do.

I am so not what I think I am. I mean if you asked me when  I was my younger self, I would so not see myself as myself now – so unsure of my life. How lah liddat? What to do, what to study, how to make money, how to survive in this world?

gah! Can John Mayer come marry me now? Then all worries will be gone. He can play music for me and everyone else and I cook dinner for him.

I need to bake this weekend. At least Kek Batik or cupcakes, or brownies! I just read the recipe from Adam at emmagem.com and boy does it look  so yummy! Plus he said this is a cannot screw up recipe! hahaha. I am never good with chocolates and boiling them. We’ll see how things goes.

Like A Comet Blazing ‘Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day Gone One Night

Like A Sunset Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Image from Getty-source eonline.com

Thank you for your music, your humanitarian charity work, your childlike persona, your dream of making this world a better place, your constant plea to go green since before it was ever cool to be green now, your performances….everything else.

You’ve been a great inspiration and source of life for so many. You’ve been part of my life and I thank God for having me in the same era as you are in. Because then, I got to know the King of Pop..

The one who made a difference and made the world not care about whether they’re black or white. The one true LEGEND, king of Pop.

Stayed up tonight to watch the memorial. Seeing the casket being brought up to the middle of the stage by the Jackson brothers and the choir at the background, omg, so tear jerking already.

Even in his funeral, he had to go with a gold extravagant casket which really shows how extravagant his life was! Well suited for the King, I must say…

It was heartwarming listening to all the eulogies and music that were presented on the show. Brooke Shields made me tear……usher’s performance was also tear jerking…Until Marlon Jackson started talking….so emo already…..then when Paris Jackson said those last few words at the memorial, I couldn’t tahan anymore. Tears just rolled. nose clogged up.

Michael Jackson, you’ll be missed. I will share your music to my children and I hope they see you the way the world sees you today.

emo experience, but totally worth the staying up. You should watch it too.

Here in Malaysia and if you have ASTRO, watch the Michael Jackson memorial tribute repeats:

• 8am, 9pm on Channel [V]
• Now, 4am, 240pm, 610pm,930pm, 11.10pm on E!

I think 8tv is repeating at night also, at 10ish pm…

I should go sleep now, as watching the repeats/CNN makes me sad even more

Its been a while since i’ve updated. 

Well, a lot has happened since the last time I updated, which was when again? May?

I went to Redang a few days later. I had the awesomeest fun. Phan Shean and amelia are awesome company and we must do this again okay? don’t care if i’m broke, just make me save money and the next time PS comes back, we must go somewhere k?

anyways, you must have seen the pictures on facebook. If not, then, go add me on facebook and see my pictures. 

A few days before Redang. Something really eye opening happened which made me do something really awesome for myself. Excuse the awesomeness in every sentence, because I feel awesome. 

Well, despite the fact that I got sandfly bites all over my legs, its ugly and itchy and I itch all the time.. its an ugly sight. I itch and its ugly. I have ugly feet. Please don’t stop freinding me cos of my ugly feet k? HAHA

But I is awesome because I have finally let go and learnt to move on with life. A really hard decision is made. I even wrote a post on that day here, but it shall remain in my drafts as it was filled with emotions and really the world does not need to see emo Karen because awesome Karen is here.

Karen is awesome because Karen is moving on and not holding on to something which isn’t mine. 

Hug and thanks to all who emoed with me on that few days and talked me into things. I mean, you guys didn’t talk me into anything, Its a decision made by moi and I’m awesome. wtf. but really thanks!

Now, I am looking for new things and yes, I also want to study. but study overseas, I cannot afford. I need to go look at UKM or HELP. omgnessbbqwtf. UNLESS, I start looking for another job and start applying for scholarships. I need scholarships to study my masters in counselling and rehab/clinical psychology. 

Anyone care to sponsor me? 

I also need to go work in a more social setting as I need the experience. Perhaps I should go consult CAREERsense. hmmm…

Anyways, I am at Gloria Jeans Coffee now drinking Chcolate Macadamia Latte. Lainey Boo’s fav drink and missing her much as she would usually slap me into doing things faster faster. lols. I miss youuuuu laineeyy booo!! 

Thank God, she’s finally on twitter. Since blogging is such a hassle, twitter is godsent. lols. 

I need to get home and apply some shitty medicine to my legs. and pray that it will all go away. As the itching is so making me look like mad lady with ugly legs. Dah lah my legs so fat and chubby, now got scars all. haihs.

Let me leave you with a picture of my awesome self in Redang with the two geekos which made my weekend memorable. LUV YOU BOTH LOADS!!! xoxo hugs hugs. 

I miss everyone! Please call me out to makan kthnxbye!

Everyone now, “hiiii Kaaarreeennnnnnn….”

Its true, I am addicted to reading people’s little blurbs. I love replying people’s blurbs and following celeb’s blurbs. Although, some news said Britney Spears and Kanye West hires people to tweet. SHAME ON THEM! Totally defeats the purpose of twitter right?

I love Diddy’s “Ptwitty” updates. He really tweets, like a lot! John Mayer’s tweets are good too. Until Jenifer(shit I got memory lapse) Aniston broke up with him because of his twitter obsession. Occasionally Mariah Carey tweets and also the boys from Backstreet Boys. How sweet right? Celebs little ways to keeping in touch with fans. Its like as if myspace and facebook wasn’t enough. We are now one degree of separated away from our fave celebs.

Sweet.

I don’t have much friends on Twitter because you’re not cool like me, wtf.I asked you to join last time, tak nak…..Anyways, I need to go shower and sleep because I have to like go for this photography competition tmr morning at 930am. *yawns* Just when I thought I could sleep in. HAHA. Cos Lea wanted to skip exercise anywaysss!:)

I’m excited about Stylo’s fashion shows next week! It has all finally come into place. I need to strap on my old, small, useless Digital Camera and brace the big guns with HUGE ASS cameras. Wish I had a cooler camera.

I might need to borrow Lea’s and Joyce’s camera! hahaha. Because sure my battery will die and no more memory! The last fashion show, I had Dell Mini9 with me, this time, no tiny laptop to carry around, boohoo.

When the time comes, and if I remmeber, please remind me to post a photo of this homeless man’s little home. He’s staying under a bridge at Kuchai Lama. I always see him when passing by the bridge and he usually sleeps. His house is actually under this flyover, you know like the end of it. He keeps all his plastic bags of what I think is his belongings and sleeps a few feet away from the end of the flyover. Near his “bed” he has this stick on the ground about a feet high and on top of it, there’s a number 3 on it. Its like as if it was his house number. I always pray for him that he’ll soon find a house of his own whenever I pass him.

Today, he was actually sweeping sand, like as if it was his own house. I wanted to cry because, omg, he’s sweeping sand, on a sandy ground. Underneath the flyover usually got sand one right? He has no slippers and the whole time I was waiting for the traffic to turn green, he was sweeping the sand.

What can I do for him ah? I do want to do something, like help him? Or tell him to go to St John’s AOHD for lunch and a bath. How how how?

Today’s love: Doe-sf, a small craft/clothes/everything else shop in San Francisco. They tweet too:)

Love the frame and the prints in them. I can perfectly fit this frame on my pink wall

This one I love long time: Ban.do

When I get married, I want a big flower on my head. Just like Carrie had a huge bird on a head. WTF.

Here are more headband love:

I love all of em:) Now I just need messy hair and a little blonde, and I’ll look like a hippie!

Finally it decides to load on me. what the fuck man. My blog server is crap i tell you. So slow!!! Sucks la

sucks to be me.

I’ve just not been in a good mood lately. Too much stress and period decides to come 2 weeks after the last one. Just great right. Doesn’t help that I’m super broke.

I am angry yes i am. I dunno at what. At everything. my blog server. at myself. at everyone else. I am angry.

I am also sad at the same time. Mostly at myself. I have no idea why. I shall not see anyone tmr, well besides work. owh and my YSL workshop. But anyway.

I need to focus and get back in line with myself. I snap at everyone I get angry so fast. I get angry at the smallest things. I can’t even stay awake when I get on the bed. Yes I’ve slept many times when I’m supposed to just lie down and wake up just in time for work the next day. I tell you I’m changing. I’m no longer myself and its so sad because i like myself. I like who I was back then before all this life happened. Back then when I woke up early to go to school just because I must not be late. I finished all my assignments with tip top quality because I must be that student. The person who loved God and look forward to church meetings with my friends.

I hardly pray anymore, I can’t even keep an abstinence from small things for lent. Maybe that’s why God has forgotten about me.

I don’t know where I’m headed in life and GOSH I don’t even know if I can graduate because my cert has not arrived in Malaysia yet. What more what i’m going to do in life. WHAT IS MY AMBITION REALLY? what the fuck do i want in life?

Just great right? My parents are all happy wondering when i’m graduating and wanna take leave and shit and here, I don’t even know if I can make it for this year’s graduation. Doesn’t help that stupid HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE is NOT doing anything to get my cert asap before the graduation. [just heard an ad on tv about HELP] Whatever ad you watch on tv, about HELP, don’t even think about going there. Go far far away from HELP.

Its a dark cloud passing by, I realise.

I will be alright.

x x x

Great song to end my post – Here comes the sun  – Beatles (in loving memory of Natashia Richardson,RIP – The first time I noticed her was in Parent Trap and this song was played.)

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right
It’s all right