Everyone now, “hiiii Kaaarreeennnnnnn….”

Its true, I am addicted to reading people’s little blurbs. I love replying people’s blurbs and following celeb’s blurbs. Although, some news said Britney Spears and Kanye West hires people to tweet. SHAME ON THEM! Totally defeats the purpose of twitter right?

I love Diddy’s “Ptwitty” updates. He really tweets, like a lot! John Mayer’s tweets are good too. Until Jenifer(shit I got memory lapse) Aniston broke up with him because of his twitter obsession. Occasionally Mariah Carey tweets and also the boys from Backstreet Boys. How sweet right? Celebs little ways to keeping in touch with fans. Its like as if myspace and facebook wasn’t enough. We are now one degree of separated away from our fave celebs.

Sweet.

I don’t have much friends on Twitter because you’re not cool like me, wtf.I asked you to join last time, tak nak…..Anyways, I need to go shower and sleep because I have to like go for this photography competition tmr morning at 930am. *yawns* Just when I thought I could sleep in. HAHA. Cos Lea wanted to skip exercise anywaysss!:)

I’m excited about Stylo’s fashion shows next week! It has all finally come into place. I need to strap on my old, small, useless Digital Camera and brace the big guns with HUGE ASS cameras. Wish I had a cooler camera.

I might need to borrow Lea’s and Joyce’s camera! hahaha. Because sure my battery will die and no more memory! The last fashion show, I had Dell Mini9 with me, this time, no tiny laptop to carry around, boohoo.

When the time comes, and if I remmeber, please remind me to post a photo of this homeless man’s little home. He’s staying under a bridge at Kuchai Lama. I always see him when passing by the bridge and he usually sleeps. His house is actually under this flyover, you know like the end of it. He keeps all his plastic bags of what I think is his belongings and sleeps a few feet away from the end of the flyover. Near his “bed” he has this stick on the ground about a feet high and on top of it, there’s a number 3 on it. Its like as if it was his house number. I always pray for him that he’ll soon find a house of his own whenever I pass him.

Today, he was actually sweeping sand, like as if it was his own house. I wanted to cry because, omg, he’s sweeping sand, on a sandy ground. Underneath the flyover usually got sand one right? He has no slippers and the whole time I was waiting for the traffic to turn green, he was sweeping the sand.

What can I do for him ah? I do want to do something, like help him? Or tell him to go to St John’s AOHD for lunch and a bath. How how how?

Today’s love: Doe-sf, a small craft/clothes/everything else shop in San Francisco. They tweet too:)

Love the frame and the prints in them. I can perfectly fit this frame on my pink wall

This one I love long time: Ban.do

When I get married, I want a big flower on my head. Just like Carrie had a huge bird on a head. WTF.

Here are more headband love:

I love all of em:) Now I just need messy hair and a little blonde, and I’ll look like a hippie!

Finally it decides to load on me. what the fuck man. My blog server is crap i tell you. So slow!!! Sucks la

sucks to be me.

I’ve just not been in a good mood lately. Too much stress and period decides to come 2 weeks after the last one. Just great right. Doesn’t help that I’m super broke.

I am angry yes i am. I dunno at what. At everything. my blog server. at myself. at everyone else. I am angry.

I am also sad at the same time. Mostly at myself. I have no idea why. I shall not see anyone tmr, well besides work. owh and my YSL workshop. But anyway.

I need to focus and get back in line with myself. I snap at everyone I get angry so fast. I get angry at the smallest things. I can’t even stay awake when I get on the bed. Yes I’ve slept many times when I’m supposed to just lie down and wake up just in time for work the next day. I tell you I’m changing. I’m no longer myself and its so sad because i like myself. I like who I was back then before all this life happened. Back then when I woke up early to go to school just because I must not be late. I finished all my assignments with tip top quality because I must be that student. The person who loved God and look forward to church meetings with my friends.

I hardly pray anymore, I can’t even keep an abstinence from small things for lent. Maybe that’s why God has forgotten about me.

I don’t know where I’m headed in life and GOSH I don’t even know if I can graduate because my cert has not arrived in Malaysia yet. What more what i’m going to do in life. WHAT IS MY AMBITION REALLY? what the fuck do i want in life?

Just great right? My parents are all happy wondering when i’m graduating and wanna take leave and shit and here, I don’t even know if I can make it for this year’s graduation. Doesn’t help that stupid HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE is NOT doing anything to get my cert asap before the graduation. [just heard an ad on tv about HELP] Whatever ad you watch on tv, about HELP, don’t even think about going there. Go far far away from HELP.

Its a dark cloud passing by, I realise.

I will be alright.

x x x

Great song to end my post – Here comes the sun  – Beatles (in loving memory of Natashia Richardson,RIP – The first time I noticed her was in Parent Trap and this song was played.)

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right
It’s all right

Watched Confessions of a shopaholic and fell in love with all those shoes!!!

Here’s one NOT from the movie, but just a random shoe i found online. LOVE the colours.

“Hold Me Now” -  Kirk Franklin

The spring of April is gone
The leaves have all turned brown
The children have all grown up
And there’s no one around
I’m looking over my life and all the mistakes I made
And I’m afraid
Afraid
Somebody told me that You would wash all my sins
And cleanse me from the scars that are so deep within
So I’m calling to You
If you can hear me
I don’t know how
I was wondering can you hold me now
You are the only one that’s patient when I fall
Your angels come to save me every time I call
You don’t laugh at me when I make mistakes and cry
You’re not like man
You understand me
See people change one day
They don’t like you the next they do
I wish that everyone could love me just like You
So here I am this sinful man peace won’t allow
I was wondering can you hold me now
I was wondering can you hold me now
To every broken person that may hear this song
To every boy or girl that feels their smile is gone
I know exactly how it feels to lay in the bed at night
And cry
And cry
Don’t you worry God is faithful and He cares
About the tears you drop and the pain you feel He there
When you are weak that’s when he’s strong
Even though you don’t know how
God can and he will hold you now
God can and he will hold you now
God can and he will hold you now
Don’t you worry he can hold you now

So I fell in love love with this headband as i mentioned a few days earlier. Immediately emailed the crafter, mel and after much thinking got it in the end.

Regret much? NO!!!! Its purrdyyy….take a look on how it looks on my head and i love love it:)

So today after a lovely dinner at subway, I went to MNG for some retail therapy Feeling a bit emo over everything lately, so I went clothe shopping. HAHA. I’ve been wanting a work skirt for the longest time. Finally got one from Mango aka MNG. I never usually buy from MNG because their tops are overpriced and usually I can’t fit their pants. But this one was exceptional. It fit me so well, its like its meant to be. The skirt I mean. So I got it. As an investment for my future work clothes outfits. hahaha

The sweater is SO PRETTY I WANNA PUKE PRETTINESS I distorted the image a lot, so you can’t really see the pockets. It has pockets. POCKETS! very cute wanna die. It fits me so well too. But RM150 for a sweater is really out of my budget. meh.. Wish my parents owns a bank, then I can shop in every store with unlimited credit.

I have a huge zit below my nose. its really annoying. I hate pimples!!

I need to stop spending!!

Its because you just shoot me down whenever I tell you anything. You know how excited I was about this, I’ve been yapping about it since saturday and you just shoot me down. I really tried to tell you everything, my biggest secret, but I’m afraid I will be scolded and judged and that’s just something I cannot handle from you.

I miss you already Have fun at Newcastle. Now I have 2 friends at Newcastle. Lainey boo and Ps. hahaha. Both at different parts of the world.

Loving my polaroid easy edit thing

My brother finally got his Electric Guitar from a Public Speaking fellow classmate of mine, Dee May. Went to Dee May’s house to get it. I was damn amazed at her house man. She lives on a hill which overseas like KL. SO PRETTY. Dee May, I want to stay in your house! lols.

Played with my brother’s new toy. No, not his electric guitar, but his Lomo Fisheye 2. Its super fun I love lomo cameras since ages ago, but just never had the cash to buy any.

We will have to develop the film first before I can show you what i took today! I had so much fun with it. I need to study some of the techniques before I can experiment more. I can’t wait:)

I found this new found toy for myself! lols. It is a polaroid maker. Way too cool! Check it out. http://www.poladroid.net/

Rockstars! hahaha

I’m going to miss you lainey boo wtf!

Elaine’s officially leaving Malaysia. :(:(

I remember at the end 2004 early 2005. When my CIMP friends all left. I emo shit giler. I cry after the farewell party. I cried a lot. Thinking about Elaine leaving also I am now emo shit giler. haihs. I hate saying goodbyes. Especially knowing I will not see them again. Elaine’s probably and will def migrate there, because who wouldn’t right? Life overseas much better than here…

Me, I will always be here. Watching everyone leave.

People always leave. That was what I lived by at that time, then things started to be ok. friends stayed. Now she’s going off and I can only be strong and hope for the best in maintaining our relationship. Long distance friendship always almost never work. We all have our own lives and soon will be drifted apart…

owh wells. We have to try to make it work no?

I wish both of us luck in maintaining the elaine+karen friends foreverrrr I will come to your wedding in Melbourne k? hahaha

karen, wingsun, gracie, karen

(gosh was I skinny!Now I dun mind wearing bikini with that body! lols)

Owh, you know, Wingsun now has a bf. Grace too so happie for them!! I miss my punch you in the face gang CIMP will always be somthing i tell my grandchildren. Learnt so much, the world opened for me. I learned to dream, make friends, learn photoshop (wtf!), met international friends, met really cool lecturers who are just so cool&nice .Best of all, met my friends, who eventually left -_- haha. Its ok i’ve come to terms with friends who are overseas

I will try my best to come to term with Elaine leaving too.

emo

I watched Marley and Me and omg, i cried like the ugly cry. It was so sadddddddd. haihssss. I also watched Slumdog Millionaire and Changeling.

(Funny how the related post showed my blog post on PS leaving and my prediction of how everyone will leave and get PR there..)

After living for 22 + years, I’ve realized something.

Friendships are based on memories built together. If you don’t have any significant memories to rely on, your friendship will never stay long. Owh and of course, your commitment to each other.

Must. Always. Spend. Time. With. Your. Friends.

Like for example, I go random shopping and make jewelry with Louanne. We criticize blogshops and go on random shopping and makan trips all the time. We used to be shopping buddies way back then in 2003. Sorry I wasn’t there for you during your huge break up, we were quite driven apart after you got together with him in the first place -_-.  Sidney will always be my bff, no matter where life leads us. I will always remember Elaine for being my friend in college when the whole world (ok, im exagerating) turn their backs on me. Sayang my lainey boo wtf. Please spend more time with me? I’m loosing you, slowly… With Lea, Nisha, Sam, my teenage friends, we will always have our Poetic ammo and boyband huntings memories. And now with Lea and Joyce, we’re growing up together in the big bad world of “adulthood” by meeting up and having dinners and laughing our asses off over things (owh, and walking at 1130pm in DPC, so mengada we all) With Phan Shean, he will always be my first few sms buddy (man, we used to sms damn a lot in high school) and close friend in high school, we still meet up, even if its once a year (now, that’s what it means to be a committed friend). Owh, now we message each other on MSN -_-  Stephanie will always be remembered with my Malacca Trip and CareerSense ( I will always remember my CareerSENSE buddies too, Jet, Patweek, Wednesday, Nick, SiewLi-Fireflies!!!), of course, all the random moments we have together and her feminism, i love. I love you stephanie chuah shin ju. TK, will always be my grocery shopping buddy, although lately you FFK me so much -_- dun like u (:p) Lavena, I miss her loads. She was also one of the reasons i believed in friendships again after the 2005 incident. Tk and her hung out with me, which made me feel a whole load better. I will also always remember my one semester with Sok Ling and how we used to go for chemistry class together. She’s a sweetheart. the times we spent together and just her fetching me to class when we had chemistry was really fun. When I said bye to her before she left for US, I was so sad (I guess her company really impacted me) Come back soon, we need to build more memories together

I never had permanant friends in college. You know the ones you have in same classes, same groups all the time in the whole undergraduate life. I just realized after spending time with stephanie’s friends and listening to all their memories they had. I never had that much memories with the same bunch of people throughout my college years. I had Rowena, Amelia and Melody for the first few sems. Then Elaine was my kawan sebuntut, with Rachael too soon after that. After they graduated, Sok Ling and steph was there. After that I was a lone ranger with no kawan sebuntut to hang out -_-

I once even believed that Peyton Sawyer quote “everyone always leaves”. You should read my diary at that down time of my life in 2004/2005.  so emo can die. thought I will never have friendships that last.

But, in the end, I’m glad I have all my friends in different circles everywhere. I’m so lucky to have still be friends with Lea now, who really I lost contact with when we were in college. Thank God, we’re hanging out now. Heck, I’m still friends with Sue Yuen Theng and Foo Wei Foong, omg. They knew me since I was 6 years old!!

The point of this post is, Thank YOU!

Thanks for being there for me and just being who you are and thinking about me when you’re praying (lol). Thanks for layaning my shits and I really hope we will not loose contact anytime in this lifetime. Please call me to go shopping or makan or minum or concerts or travelling or anything else you can think of. Sayang you girls and guys loads. Let’s grow old together?

(shit, I’d better not leave anybody out…lols. If I do, please accept my apology, lols)