So today was fairly a lazy day. I wanted to bake cupcakes for Laineyboo, but I didn’t have eggs at home. It was all busuk and I didn’t have car, so baking plans failed. Boohoo..

I shall bake for her on Thursday. Just for old times sake and plus elaine loves cakes:) I’m going to miss that girl very dearly. I was just browsing MAS airline tickets to Sydney. SO CHEAP!!! RM1300+ for return tickets. omg wtf bbq.

Lainey Boo, I’m coming to you soon! hahaha. Need to save money first.

I don’t think I will ever be rich lah. How now brown cow? Now that I’m earning in the thousands (ok very little i earn k!!), I’m already going to be broke.. Saving money is just not my thing.

This is because, I’m thinking of holidays way out of my budget already. But I love traveling. I plan to do so until im old enough to omg, start settling down. haha. Why save when you can travel, wtf! hahaha

Actually I really do need to save lahh.. haihs.

So anyways, today I ber make up for the farewell bbq. Elaine invited me to her high school fwens bbq. Not that I felt left out, they were great company to be with. Elaine’s fwens are awesomely fun people Finally met Melody and actually had conversations with her -_-. Manda, Stacy, Sue and Joy and everyone else were there too. Owh, also finally met Kat, her lawyer friend that I’ve never met before This would probably be the last time I’m hanging out with them as our mutual friend is leaving :/ The bbq wings were really nice. Some honey glazed bbq Kat’s bf’s recipe. heehee. Overall, twas a great night of laughter.

Back to the make up, I used this new eye liner. Which is like omg, so much nicer than my stiiiuuuppidd Loreal one It goes on better and like, no need to press so hard. Loreal cheat me cos theirs must press hard hard. lols. This one just glides on smoothly.

Its the Rimmel London Extreme Definition Two-Tone Eye Definerin Black and White #003 trendsetter. I remember watching some make up artist do some white eye liner on me once upon a time ago to define the eye, but I never remembered how to do it.

I tried it and omg, so fail. I guess people with dark skin should not attempt the white liner.

But if you have a tan or chocolate skin tone, try a bronze-shimmer liner instead.
Source: iVillage

But Tyra banks did it and she looks awesome.I guess she use damn minimal. Plus she has a glam squad with her. MEH!

Image from Popsugar

Defining Eyes

Step1

Make your eyes look bright and big like Tyra’s by applying white eyeliner on the inside of your lower lid. Tyra says white eyeliner is the best investment a woman can make because it makes you look vibrant even when you’re tired.

Step2

Apply one coat of mascara to your top and bottom lashes, which keeps the lashes from getting clumpy. To emphasize your bottom lashes, touch the mascara brush to your lower lids as you apply it.

Step3

Use an eyelash curler after you apply mascara to make your upper lashes look longer. Squeeze the curler two or three times to curl the upper lashes. Wipe excess mascara off the curler after each use.
Source: Ehow

I so fail at make up dot com

Today’s Lavena’s birthday. She’s in India and far away. It rhymes.

Happy 23rd Birthday!

Have loads of crazy drama fun in India and tell us about it when you’re back. Maklumlah, kita memang Katak di bawah tempurung kat Malaysia ini….

This reminds all of us that this year we are ALL 23. Shit lahhh. 23 weyyy… Wish us luck, before we know it, we’re already 25… and then 30… and…..40…..50…….and then we die……

I just bought this headband online. It is a crochet headband which is handmade and I truly love how it looks on the girls head. I just had to get one. I got one in light purple. Because I have dark hair! lols. I just have this thing for all things handmade. The quirkyness and like how its one of a kind, turns me on. lols.

Lets just hope it looks nice on me eh?

http://lovemelcrafts.blogspot.com/

Today, tk and I went to the ZOO. Yes, zoo negara. Saw loads of animals. Some slept like pigs, smelly as hell. we’re probably 5 shades darker. Owh, also went to Daiso for shopping. tk hates that place, but I LOVE IT. Everything for RM5!Plus, the Japanese can really make all kinds of craps which we all practically don’t need. I love looking at craps like that.It is therapeutic.

I bought 3 storage box thingy for my make up stuff It is now super organized. I will bergambar soon.

We also made our way to Ikea to design and plan my very new project: Project Dressing Table. I will update more on this soon. We looked through all the cheapest and chic-est way of getting my Project Dressing Table done I like my projects… I will tell you all about it soon…

But I think I should sleep. I had 2 hours of sleep last night and I walked so much today, my feet were killing me.

On another random note:

I miss eating Rock Candies. To all who are in Australia/UK/USA, please bring me back some lovely rock candies

Can’t you tell, I’m in love with my polaroid

I miss you already Have fun at Newcastle. Now I have 2 friends at Newcastle. Lainey boo and Ps. hahaha. Both at different parts of the world.

Loving my polaroid easy edit thing

Elaine’s officially leaving Malaysia. :(:(

I remember at the end 2004 early 2005. When my CIMP friends all left. I emo shit giler. I cry after the farewell party. I cried a lot. Thinking about Elaine leaving also I am now emo shit giler. haihs. I hate saying goodbyes. Especially knowing I will not see them again. Elaine’s probably and will def migrate there, because who wouldn’t right? Life overseas much better than here…

Me, I will always be here. Watching everyone leave.

People always leave. That was what I lived by at that time, then things started to be ok. friends stayed. Now she’s going off and I can only be strong and hope for the best in maintaining our relationship. Long distance friendship always almost never work. We all have our own lives and soon will be drifted apart…

owh wells. We have to try to make it work no?

I wish both of us luck in maintaining the elaine+karen friends foreverrrr I will come to your wedding in Melbourne k? hahaha

karen, wingsun, gracie, karen

(gosh was I skinny!Now I dun mind wearing bikini with that body! lols)

Owh, you know, Wingsun now has a bf. Grace too so happie for them!! I miss my punch you in the face gang CIMP will always be somthing i tell my grandchildren. Learnt so much, the world opened for me. I learned to dream, make friends, learn photoshop (wtf!), met international friends, met really cool lecturers who are just so cool&nice .Best of all, met my friends, who eventually left -_- haha. Its ok i’ve come to terms with friends who are overseas

I will try my best to come to term with Elaine leaving too.

emo

I watched Marley and Me and omg, i cried like the ugly cry. It was so sadddddddd. haihssss. I also watched Slumdog Millionaire and Changeling.

(Funny how the related post showed my blog post on PS leaving and my prediction of how everyone will leave and get PR there..)

I had Kuaci today. Its been so long since i had one. lols. Funny how I first spelt kuaci as Kuachee just now thanks to Kuachee from Frequency Cannon.

I finally bought Eat, Pray, Love today at MPH. Its about a self discovery book and a memoir about Liz who went travelling to find out who she was. Also because Oprah said it rocks sometime ago and every girl should read it. So I must read it hehehe. shall bring it along to my vacay. Self discovery through a book. i think I’m buying it at the right time of my life because I really need it, right now. The turning point of my life. Life decisions is to be made.

I’m burping and farting a lot. The last time I felt so bloated, I had diarrhea the next day. OMGNESS. I cannot shit in highway rest stops!! hahahaha.

Buy me this and I will love you foreverrrrrrrrrrrrr

I’m sleepy already. LOLS. Ok shall sleep.No blog. Sleep.

I miss everyone!! Just chatted with StephJuju

(In Steph’s style: sleep? what sleep? I don’t sleep!!! Sleep are for the lazy bums  )

[just cos i found something to blog about]

Then stages of relationship came out as we were talking. I remember last time in Sunday School, my teachers used to teach me all these stages of a relationship. Like first stage is the getting to know each other stage, honeymoon stage, etcetc (I never paid attention in Sunday School, we were too busy writing notes to each other and bitching about something, right lea? hahahahah).

But i did remember bits and pieces of the stages. Like mostly physical stages of a normal relationship and what they told us was to ahem, stop at Hugging I think? lols. Was it petting? I just remember anything after heavy petting is a NONO. I don’t remember all. I just threw away all my sunday school books that day when cleaning up. So I did what I do best, I turned to my best dictionary/encyclopedia in the whole world!

Stages of development are something imprinted on our heads after studying 4 years of psychology (Hint hint: Erik Erikson’s 8 Stages of Psychosocial Development). We know that there’s a stage of Intimacy vs. Isolation-which is where most of us are, after age 18/19/20 till the next stage of generativity.

Quote Allpsych.com:

Intimacy vs. Isolation.
Occurring in Young adulthood, we begin to
share ourselves more intimately with others. We explore relationships
leading toward longer term commitments with someone other than a family
member. Successful completion can lead to comfortable relationships and a
sense of commitment, safety, and care within a relationship. Avoiding
intimacy, fearing commitment and relationships can lead to isolation,
loneliness, and sometimes depression.

We learn who we are in the earlier stage and in this stage, we want to share more and find that other person to be committed with. its like human nature to find more people to share their lives with. It is a time to explore and find that someone to share your life with….etcetc.

But, we hardly mention stages of a relationship. Maybe we did, I just wasn’t paying attention. Maybe in personality class or developmental psych class. But who is keeping track anyways. Owh owh, we did learn about sexual response cycle in Abnormal Psych and all the psychological dysfunctions that comes along with it. Really funny to hear Dr. Ng talk about it in class. hahaha.

Oh how I love this subject, psychology

My trusted source (ahem, google) revealed that most “relationship expert” websites stated there are only 4-5 recognized predictable stages.

A psychologist, Nancy Wesson, PhD in counseling and psychotherapy for couples said that there are 5 stages:

Stage I: Infatuation
Stage II: Initial but Limited Commitment (6 weeks to 2 years)
Stage III: Permanent Commitment
Stage IV: Early Marriage/Commitment
Stage V: Recommitment

Which I think is kinda ok, considering she has done her research I always wanted to be a couple therapist. Maybe one day I realize my dreams and make Randy Pausch (RIP) proud.

Then, I also read this one which says:

Initial Stage (Romance)

Eye-opener Stage (Reality)

Stability Stage (Maturity)

Commitment Stage (Totally Practical)

Marriage Stage (Romance once again)

This is funny. I found this by Ask Ken. Superficial stages of a relationship. More of a sexual relationship:

Stage 1: Polite dating. Dinner in classy restaurants. Secretive lusting.
Stage 2: Comfortable familiarity. The sharing of poorly written poetry. Dinner, movies and concerts. Thinly veiled secretive lusting.
Stage 3: Nothing else exists in the universe except the object of desire. Food and water not necessary to sustain life. Fear that heart will burst from excessive joy. The first awkward sexual groping.
Stage 4: Coupledom. Both quit asking each other out on “dates”; both assume time will be spent together. Dinner and rented movies. More awkward sexual fumbling. Friends begin feeling forgotten.
Stage 5: No dinners, no movies, just a tangled mass of nekkid, sweating, thrusting bodies. Neighbors pounding on ceiling/walls/floor.
Stage 6: Walking around in underwear in front of each other. The beginning stages of the use of the words “honey” and “dear”. Much more hot monkey love.
Stage 7: Raiding the refrigerator or turning on the television after sex. Frequency and timing of sex becomes predictable. Friends begin hearing from you again. The first signs of problems deciding which videos to rent.
Stage 8: Fast food. More arguments about which videos to rent. Fantasizing about others while getting it on.
Stage 9: Mild discontent. Sex not because you want it but because you can have it. Macaroni and cheese from a box. Network television.
Stage 10: Masturbation because sex is too much effort. Arby’s. Constant sniping at each other.
Stage 11: What were cute habits are now driving you insane. Frequent desire to strangle partner in their sleep. Questions as to what attracted the two of you to each other in the first place.
Stage 12: The division of goods, the parting of ways, the promise that this will never happen again

Well, in my opinion, stages of a relationship are really like what they said. Will write more soon in an open way. 4 days in Taiping with my lappie is going to be fun:)

I think my passion for the topic of finding the right partner, meeting the opposite sex, relationships and being a marriage therapist has not faded with time. All my psych project research has been along the same lines.

Now i’m just talking crap lah, please do not quote me. Maybe one day, I will be an expert in relationship psychology. who knows. lols.

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Sleep? 4-5 hour journey to Taiping should be enough sleep. I need to pack, like soon.

Randy Pausch said I should dream and always work my way to achieve my dream. I just need to rediscover what I want in life and what I wish to spend my life on. And I will, you just wait Randy!

Happy CNY!

lols. Lavena is back. heehee. Missed her India drama stories. We were enlightened with one drama just now. Waiting for the bigger drama story. hahaha.

I told her, “we’re katak di bawah tempurung,tak pernah pergi India” so she must share her stories with us. drama ones. lols.

Owh, TK eats very SLOWLY. I wanna kill him. so beh tahan leh. If you put Lea and TK together, by the time TK takes his 3rd bite, Lea would finish her food! Lea eats fast!!

But omg, if I was his mother I will smack his head ask him to eat faster already. hahaha.

Because i’m lazy, here’s a photo:

We did what every malaysian does…. Take photo with the decorations -______________-

After living for 22 + years, I’ve realized something.

Friendships are based on memories built together. If you don’t have any significant memories to rely on, your friendship will never stay long. Owh and of course, your commitment to each other.

Must. Always. Spend. Time. With. Your. Friends.

Like for example, I go random shopping and make jewelry with Louanne. We criticize blogshops and go on random shopping and makan trips all the time. We used to be shopping buddies way back then in 2003. Sorry I wasn’t there for you during your huge break up, we were quite driven apart after you got together with him in the first place -_-.  Sidney will always be my bff, no matter where life leads us. I will always remember Elaine for being my friend in college when the whole world (ok, im exagerating) turn their backs on me. Sayang my lainey boo wtf. Please spend more time with me? I’m loosing you, slowly… With Lea, Nisha, Sam, my teenage friends, we will always have our Poetic ammo and boyband huntings memories. And now with Lea and Joyce, we’re growing up together in the big bad world of “adulthood” by meeting up and having dinners and laughing our asses off over things (owh, and walking at 1130pm in DPC, so mengada we all) With Phan Shean, he will always be my first few sms buddy (man, we used to sms damn a lot in high school) and close friend in high school, we still meet up, even if its once a year (now, that’s what it means to be a committed friend). Owh, now we message each other on MSN -_-  Stephanie will always be remembered with my Malacca Trip and CareerSense ( I will always remember my CareerSENSE buddies too, Jet, Patweek, Wednesday, Nick, SiewLi-Fireflies!!!), of course, all the random moments we have together and her feminism, i love. I love you stephanie chuah shin ju. TK, will always be my grocery shopping buddy, although lately you FFK me so much -_- dun like u (:p) Lavena, I miss her loads. She was also one of the reasons i believed in friendships again after the 2005 incident. Tk and her hung out with me, which made me feel a whole load better. I will also always remember my one semester with Sok Ling and how we used to go for chemistry class together. She’s a sweetheart. the times we spent together and just her fetching me to class when we had chemistry was really fun. When I said bye to her before she left for US, I was so sad (I guess her company really impacted me) Come back soon, we need to build more memories together

I never had permanant friends in college. You know the ones you have in same classes, same groups all the time in the whole undergraduate life. I just realized after spending time with stephanie’s friends and listening to all their memories they had. I never had that much memories with the same bunch of people throughout my college years. I had Rowena, Amelia and Melody for the first few sems. Then Elaine was my kawan sebuntut, with Rachael too soon after that. After they graduated, Sok Ling and steph was there. After that I was a lone ranger with no kawan sebuntut to hang out -_-

I once even believed that Peyton Sawyer quote “everyone always leaves”. You should read my diary at that down time of my life in 2004/2005.  so emo can die. thought I will never have friendships that last.

But, in the end, I’m glad I have all my friends in different circles everywhere. I’m so lucky to have still be friends with Lea now, who really I lost contact with when we were in college. Thank God, we’re hanging out now. Heck, I’m still friends with Sue Yuen Theng and Foo Wei Foong, omg. They knew me since I was 6 years old!!

The point of this post is, Thank YOU!

Thanks for being there for me and just being who you are and thinking about me when you’re praying (lol). Thanks for layaning my shits and I really hope we will not loose contact anytime in this lifetime. Please call me to go shopping or makan or minum or concerts or travelling or anything else you can think of. Sayang you girls and guys loads. Let’s grow old together?

(shit, I’d better not leave anybody out…lols. If I do, please accept my apology, lols)

Dear Steph, Thanks for all the lovely memories in college, CareerSENSE and more college, IWD madness and of course, MALACCA!!!!! You’re only 21 but like my Tai Ka Cheh like that! hehe. You’re way too wise for a 21 year old:)

xoxo, karenmarie

See ya tonight

(omg, I loved that t shirt-in blue, I wonder where it went!!)

So yesterday was my last day at college, officially. Not counting exams and those things.

I went to the old CFP department in KPD E and boy, does it feel different now. KPDE no longer is the same anymore. Earlier I wrote about how level 4 is now a library. Now that KPDE no longer has CFP, it looks so bare. You know how we used to have like a million posters here and there, it is now literally so bare and the posters are all gone. I did see the ADPSC poster board. With the old blue, ADPSC logo that Aaron made for us. I printed it and pasted it on the board. That one’s still there.

But it just doesn’t feel the same anymore. I mean, KPDE used to be ADP/CFP building. Where all ADP students were CFP studets and we all were together forever. Until B psych came in and they totally were snobbish towards ADP. Bleh. I mean, they are nice people (I know so many of them!), they just have this mentality that they are all that. sheesh.

But anyways, My last day of class was by Fatimah. LOLS. People hate her lectures, but really, she’s quite ok.

My last class was at Wisma HELP. Meh. Level 8 now is so vibrant and CFP-like.

As I drove pass the parking lot, I felt like “hmmmmm” a bit nostalic lah, like come on, I’ve been going there everyday for the past 3.5 years! I will miss the SanFran Coffee, Maxis…..lols. the roti sardin, chinese mixed rice, sausage and potato, indome goreng from maxis, tuna sandwich+BLT+iced choc from San Fran. The 50% discount for students on drinks. haihs.

I have already missed college life earlier this year when everyone left as this year’s college life is like -go class come back- no fun at all. So not much nostalgic feelings about college life. -_-

xxx

Owh, I just found out that I might be having the “graduation” ceremony only in December 2009? like wtf? I thought it was in April. That’s why I rushed my degree to graduate on time.

Xue Zhen, did you know about this? Are you graduating this month? Please tell me? If you don’t know about this, let’s go make a hoohah, and like make them graduate us in April!!!

xxx

Lea’s birthday was on wednesday and Joyce, Lea and I spent one night together basically catching up and doing nothing. We literally walked the whole Desa Park City fr fun. LOLS. so mengada, but it was fun. I lovelovelove times like these when we just hang out and do nothing.

More to com girls!:) eh, don’t forget our Langkawi Trip

xxx

Went to Bangkok Jazz last night for a show by Giant Timeline ft Najwa. They are a band from ICOM. It was a nice place, but I had to go back early, boohoo. when will i be fully emancipated from my parents?

Emmagem’s having this really cool competition in January! Join k? hahahah. Although friends and family cannot join.. lols.

Okay, so today (or more like yesterday) Lea and I went to Quattro to meet Jeff Timmons.

Lea and I re-living our groupie days -_- (which btw, we so fail at!! We saw him outside the club, but just stared at each other and missed an opportunity to take picture with him and have a conversation, SO FAIL!)

He was the former 98 degrees guy who is now a solo singer thingy ma jig. In case your forgot, he looks beefed up like this:

You know how they say come backs are really sad? Well, today, Lea and I saw how sad it was, literally.

The crowd was not layan-ing him also. He was singing but no one’s listening. No one layan him at all. Then when he finished singing, the DJ played this famous hip-hop song, and everyone screamed louder than they applauded for Jeff. Maybe the club crowd isn’t what he was looking for.

Anyways, we layaned him when he sang. But just the two of us, where got enough. We managed to run after him in the OHHMAAIIIGOOSSHH super packed Quattro club and took a photo with him. It was after his final performance and owh boy was he a bit angry. Lea heard some squabbles and frustrated comments that he told his manager.

Feel so sad for him. but nontheless, we did maage to take some pictures and picture with him.

Good Luck Jeff! I need to hear your songs clearly again! hahaha

Btw, Quattro is nice! but so overcrowded