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Chan Cheu Karen Kaa!

I now speak Thai okay. I terror, don’t play play!

So anyways, you know what’s bliss?

Chatting with friends, drinking coke, aircond on, semi naked and chilling with my own version of chillout music. lols. John Cena’s Right now…Frankie J’s don’t wanna try. Pdiddy’s I need a girl…the list goes on. 

So it has been a week with my mac. My love affair with mac is a love-hate relationship. I love how new it is and how it has been awesome for the eye, but I hate how I don’t know how to do many things like how I used to do with pc. Maybe in time, I’ll be fine

You know what I hate, mosquitoes!!! They bite, make me itch and leave scars. I seriously need some kinda lotion and cream to make my scars less visible. damn those small insects. please die!

So this week has been alright. I’ve been meeting friends, Louanne finally has time for me, ahem. lols. We went shopping like we used to. haha. missed you loads! Shall go more shopping k? (With NO money)

My face needs hydration, cos I got dried up face. 

My hair needs a shampoo that’s worth RM68, cos I got dandruff, but oily scalp.

How lah liddat? I feel poorer by the day. Being maintained  and prim and proper is not cheap. Why not just go out with ugly hair and dried up face? cannoottt, the world thinks we all need to dress well, cob hair, make up and put on like one ton of face products so that the face doesn’t age and get patchy because of the sun…

But thank God I attended all these talks and workshops on facials and make up while i’m still a writer. I now know how to cleanse tone moisturize and put mask and shit. Also know the basics of make up. I still haven’t found my fashion sense, but learning, learning…I can now consider myself a girly girl. 

wtf.

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Poor doggies.

Finally it decides to load on me. what the fuck man. My blog server is crap i tell you. So slow!!! Sucks la

sucks to be me.

I’ve just not been in a good mood lately. Too much stress and period decides to come 2 weeks after the last one. Just great right. Doesn’t help that I’m super broke.

I am angry yes i am. I dunno at what. At everything. my blog server. at myself. at everyone else. I am angry.

I am also sad at the same time. Mostly at myself. I have no idea why. I shall not see anyone tmr, well besides work. owh and my YSL workshop. But anyway.

I need to focus and get back in line with myself. I snap at everyone I get angry so fast. I get angry at the smallest things. I can’t even stay awake when I get on the bed. Yes I’ve slept many times when I’m supposed to just lie down and wake up just in time for work the next day. I tell you I’m changing. I’m no longer myself and its so sad because i like myself. I like who I was back then before all this life happened. Back then when I woke up early to go to school just because I must not be late. I finished all my assignments with tip top quality because I must be that student. The person who loved God and look forward to church meetings with my friends.

I hardly pray anymore, I can’t even keep an abstinence from small things for lent. Maybe that’s why God has forgotten about me.

I don’t know where I’m headed in life and GOSH I don’t even know if I can graduate because my cert has not arrived in Malaysia yet. What more what i’m going to do in life. WHAT IS MY AMBITION REALLY? what the fuck do i want in life?

Just great right? My parents are all happy wondering when i’m graduating and wanna take leave and shit and here, I don’t even know if I can make it for this year’s graduation. Doesn’t help that stupid HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE is NOT doing anything to get my cert asap before the graduation. [just heard an ad on tv about HELP] Whatever ad you watch on tv, about HELP, don’t even think about going there. Go far far away from HELP.

Its a dark cloud passing by, I realise.

I will be alright.

x x x

Great song to end my post – Here comes the sun  – Beatles (in loving memory of Natashia Richardson,RIP – The first time I noticed her was in Parent Trap and this song was played.)

Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, it’s been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Little darling, the smiles returning to the faces
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
and I say it’s all right

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…
Sun, sun, sun, here it comes…

Little darling, I feel that ice is slowly melting
Little darling, it seems like years since it’s been clear
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun,
and I say it’s all right
It’s all right

So today was fairly a lazy day. I wanted to bake cupcakes for Laineyboo, but I didn’t have eggs at home. It was all busuk and I didn’t have car, so baking plans failed. Boohoo..

I shall bake for her on Thursday. Just for old times sake and plus elaine loves cakes:) I’m going to miss that girl very dearly. I was just browsing MAS airline tickets to Sydney. SO CHEAP!!! RM1300+ for return tickets. omg wtf bbq.

Lainey Boo, I’m coming to you soon! hahaha. Need to save money first.

I don’t think I will ever be rich lah. How now brown cow? Now that I’m earning in the thousands (ok very little i earn k!!), I’m already going to be broke.. Saving money is just not my thing.

This is because, I’m thinking of holidays way out of my budget already. But I love traveling. I plan to do so until im old enough to omg, start settling down. haha. Why save when you can travel, wtf! hahaha

Actually I really do need to save lahh.. haihs.

So anyways, today I ber make up for the farewell bbq. Elaine invited me to her high school fwens bbq. Not that I felt left out, they were great company to be with. Elaine’s fwens are awesomely fun people Finally met Melody and actually had conversations with her -_-. Manda, Stacy, Sue and Joy and everyone else were there too. Owh, also finally met Kat, her lawyer friend that I’ve never met before This would probably be the last time I’m hanging out with them as our mutual friend is leaving :/ The bbq wings were really nice. Some honey glazed bbq Kat’s bf’s recipe. heehee. Overall, twas a great night of laughter.

Back to the make up, I used this new eye liner. Which is like omg, so much nicer than my stiiiuuuppidd Loreal one It goes on better and like, no need to press so hard. Loreal cheat me cos theirs must press hard hard. lols. This one just glides on smoothly.

Its the Rimmel London Extreme Definition Two-Tone Eye Definerin Black and White #003 trendsetter. I remember watching some make up artist do some white eye liner on me once upon a time ago to define the eye, but I never remembered how to do it.

I tried it and omg, so fail. I guess people with dark skin should not attempt the white liner.

But if you have a tan or chocolate skin tone, try a bronze-shimmer liner instead.
Source: iVillage

But Tyra banks did it and she looks awesome.I guess she use damn minimal. Plus she has a glam squad with her. MEH!

Image from Popsugar

Defining Eyes

Step1

Make your eyes look bright and big like Tyra’s by applying white eyeliner on the inside of your lower lid. Tyra says white eyeliner is the best investment a woman can make because it makes you look vibrant even when you’re tired.

Step2

Apply one coat of mascara to your top and bottom lashes, which keeps the lashes from getting clumpy. To emphasize your bottom lashes, touch the mascara brush to your lower lids as you apply it.

Step3

Use an eyelash curler after you apply mascara to make your upper lashes look longer. Squeeze the curler two or three times to curl the upper lashes. Wipe excess mascara off the curler after each use.
Source: Ehow

I so fail at make up dot com

one of my fave, fave, fave psychology lecturer is leaving!!

*cries*

i’m just gonna so miss her super so extremely much. She’s like a living legend in my department. I wonder who is going to fill her shoes. Thank God she gave me a good foundation in Research Methods before leaving. I would love to take more subjects under her tho. but, i can’t now. i probably won’t be a tutor too, since she’s the one who gave me this job. But, i love my job. i love being a tutor girl. she empowered me in so many ways, that she wouldn’t know.

Who’s gonna make everyone tremble when she says “ok, number one, what is maturation?”
Who’s gonna make people shiver when it comes to mock presentation or trial run?
Who’s gonna be organizing Colloquium?
Who’s going to be the super fast talking lecturer who is like only like one of the best lecturer anyone could ever have?

Ms Winnee, don’t leaveeee???

sometimes i wish i was dead in heaven or hell whichever way i go. or lost in an island fighting the others. or in a prison because i killed someone.

another week.

another stressed out freaking week.

i hate my life at the moment.

life sucks.

sucks sucks sucks.

i hate work, i hate anthropology, i hate the fact that sidney’s far away, i hate quizzes, i hate piling up workload, i hate my life.

wish i was dead.

bye

oh my!!!

my boyzIImen plan has been cancelled!Lea has some family problems…i hope all things goes well for her. please pray for her and her grandma too k?

so im not going now…
well, not exactly. i still have hope to follow Xue Zhen there then drive back at night from her place.
OMG, its not like i’ve never driven at night before. all those night out with my friends. i do stay out sorta late (in my parents book) and i drive home myself!

omg!!!

now just because im coming from genting, and driving back from PJ, its “
too dangerous”

its not like im a party animal and go out all the time. just this once i want to go see my lovely dahhling boyzIImen, and they say its dangerous!!

my brother is supporting the idea. now i just have to convince my dad to let me go. Even TK said he can fetch me back from Kelana Jaya if my parents don’t let me drive. sweetheart tk!

haihs. sucks.

waiting for my dad now…i hope he says yes!

i do want to see boyzIImen badly!